Jeeze plans canceled, uncanceled, recanceled - changed to a new plan. Ugh I'm so stressed out! I'm trying to get to Texas. Seems that there's a movment against it however. I'm so tired Ican't type properly, and I can't sleep because I'm dreaming of...cows(@.@ Why cows? And why are the cows such a bother to me? I don't know why the though of cows repels me from sleep...). My back hurst my tummy aches and my little sister fell asleep in my bed. She won't move over either and nothing short of a forklift will lift her.

Wow I had so much to say when I got on and now it seems I'm blank. I have nothing.

Almost nothing, My grandmothers really sick. I'm really scared about it. We haven't been very close up until the last couple years and really were still working on it. Now I'm afraid she'll go away. And I'm also worried about the effect it's having on my mom. She cried on my shoulder the other day, something she's never done in all the time I've known her. It made me cry - not infront of her, I wanted to seem more supportive than that. I didn't realize how bad this was. I feel just awful for all the times I went to Texas and didn't stop by. Plus the guilt for going on this trip without my mom has got me bad.

I wish everything would just calm down, that the move to Texas would be done and everything. Whenever I get stressed out I really wish I were back in Texas, I really miss Neko. She's always there and gives good cuddles whenever I'm sad. Well I"m drawing blanks again I'd better go.

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General

Mood - Anxious
Song - Lucy IN the Sky with Diamonds - The Beatles